The Basement in the Attic

My random meanderings on lived experiences & the thoughts they generate.


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My list of favorite movies changes with the solar wind, but 2 of the titles longest on my top ten would be “A Man For All Seasons” (1966, Starring Paul Scofield) and “Three Days of the Condor” (1975, directed by Sydney Pollack, starring you-know-who.)

I watch 3DotC last night, not really intending to, and loved every moment of it. It is perfect for this season, not merely because of the carols sung in the background of the memorable last scene. Pollack creates a film of really tight shots. The saturation and fidelity of highlights is shocking for a movie this old. Owen Roizman filmed it, and I wonder if he’s as proud of it as I think he should be. For that matter, Pollack too.

The movie’s just a delight, I invite you to see it, but be prepared to slow down. Sure, at 1172 shots (avg 5.8s/shot) it’s cut really tight, but the pacing is still way too slow for the Java Generation. There’s a grace to the way it dances, alternately slow and leading, then curt and snappy. And there are the inevitable 1975-nesses. The pay phones, and the use of phone and computer technology. I have to say, the computer at the opening of the show was seriously hot shit in ’75. In fact, what it was doing and the printer alone went miles to convincing the then-viewer that we are NOT in Kansas anymore.

My father has seen the location for the opening scenes, it really is the American Literary Historical Society, it really is there, and it looked exactly like it does (exterior, neighborhood) in the film. Anyway, I’m not going through it scene-by-scene...yet. This is just a little waxing on about some of my delights in this film. The quality of the image and production still floor me to this day. Even the final shot, the push in must be 10:1, maybe even 20:1? I wonder what the hell Roizman had in that magazine to capture that shot, because my recollection of emulsions back in those days, the grain would’ve blown-out after 5:1. Watch it, tell me what you think.


When The Daughter was little, I told Family Therapist and K that The Daughter could not learn to clean her room because there was no “away” to put things. That the number of things to be put exceeded the places to put them. I’ve been drifting to a whole new definition of “put away” and organization, that I tried poorly to express to my friend V. After a little event with my father yesterday, I think I’ve refined the definition.

“Put away” is indeed a condition, in the end one can look at something (or a place now cleared of that something) and say, “Yep, that’s put away.” But the thing is, the task or situation before-hand, there is NO “away” for those things. Imagine professional movers have magically transported all your things from one apartment to a new one. Boxes everywhere. Same stuff, new place. Now, tell me where “away” is. Sure, the forks will not likely have an “away” that’s next to the socks, the use of the item may generally select for or preclude certain places.

Nope, the new definition of “away” that I want to convey to you, dear anonymous reader, is that of process and not place. “Away” is a condition not merely of 3 spatial dimensions, but of the time-axis it took to get there. V, mentioned above, has a minor storage crisis in her home. Through much debate on this subject, I think she’s agreed to engage in a process of simply touching every single thing in her house. Not merely to re-acquaint but to refresh the place in its relation to how to get to that place.

I suspect that we can train ourselves to understand positional reference in the abstract. My father’s pretty good at that, one of the skills learned as a pilot. But realistically, we’re critters who learn placement by getting there. We know that gramma’s house is over the woods and through the hills. So too the horse, learns it by the process of getting there. Same thing with out manifold possessions. And why the desktop metaphor works better than the command-line for stuff stored on computers. Originally, the computer guys just thought it was the spatial relationship. And it can be, using folders in a perfect tree that anyone on first glance can decode. Ever see the shared drives at a big office? I work in the Land of the Geeks. People cannot make eye contact when passing in the hall. The fashion sense is appalling. The rudeness is epic. And the shared drive is the biggest disaster I’ve ever seen. The unbelievable crap and seemingly random placement of stuff is shocking. (I found a 1-gig item named “My Documents” the other day, untouched since early ’08. I can’t give you even a hint of the path, it would violate several banking regulations and federal information security laws. Yes, it was stored someplace that critical, that secret, that deep.) Sure, a lot of things like this happen by mistake. But in the computer case cited above, and in my dad’s house, there was a temporally significant reason. At the time, that place made sense. For everything. And the problem is, reconstructing the time. The item, resting in its place, gives no hint as to the process that got it there. But god help you if you move it. Aboard the International Space Station (ISS) where you can store anything literally anywhere, they keep an enormously detailed database of where everything is kept. The size of this database must be literally shocking, even if you decide that the smallest thing stored in it is a “1 cubic foot container.” (The standard bag for carrying stuff.) As we all know, the actual minimum-sized thingy in their db is a hell of a lot smaller, but I’m just trying to help you grasp the notion of tracking stuff in a 132 foot long tube with no gravity (to speak of). IN SPITE of this accounting, they must periodically take narrated video tours of the ISS, to synchronize the ground and the station staffs on where stuff has been put. The reason, I’d venture, is because the db stores item-location and the humans store item-process. Since entering a narrative of what you did with widget 1W345-BNC/500.11 rev 11.0.3.1666 is as tedious as writing the part number out (times 10), I don’t think us and the ‘puters are going to come to any equality in tracking stuff for a long time. In Cory Doctorow’s new novel “Makers” (serialized at www.tor.com and available for purchase at the usual dead-tree outlets) he proposes a world slightly in front of now where the maker-trend leads to an attempt to create a corporate exploitation of small, amorphous groups forming to create a new thingy, get it to market, then de-forming and re-aligning in new ways to make the NEXT new thingy. Our heros take common RFID technology to the home, tagging everything in the home, and recording on a db what the item is. The RF-part of the acronym allows the computer to find the thingy wherever you put it. So you go to a pc, scroll through the inventory until you find the scissors, and ask the computer to tell you where your roomie/spouse/child left it last. The pc shows you and lights up an LED on the closest architectural element. (Drawer, closet, table, etc.) The reason for this product is the enablement of “good roommates”. That big-picture reason is so unbelievably eloquent, the use of tech that cannot be useful to people (computers store item-info in a way your brain does not) to become useful to people in a way that lubricates one of the most difficult processes: human relations in a household. And this tech allows you to each have your own process. In fact, by eliminating the grumbling anger of never finding the scissors where you think they should be kept, you can observe the fact that your roomie always puts them over there when you think they should go over here. Then, a discussion can be started, a comparison of the relative merits. And a decision can be made. So if, with our competing processes, we cannot manage to live together, we can, with our enabling technology, get over the problem. To get to that point, we have to realize that there is a problem. And we have to figure out the root of that problem. I put to you, dear anonymous reader, that the problem of not finding stuff is that we’ve been treating location as the significant fact, the definition of “away.” I further posit that this is wrong, that our brains actually store the process. The process of use, the process of putting. We store the video of our use and storage of the item, not the x, y, z spatial coordinates. Please, take advantage of the opportunity to comment below. This is (I hope) as fascinating to you as it is to me.


My most wise friend V says that phrase to remind me that the truth is in the feelings. (Sacred, up there, doesn’t have any spiritual or religious overtones; it simply means they are the highest form in the pantheon of our brain’s little doo-dads and thingies.) This is something I must remember as the grieving for our loss of K continues. 1st Thanksgiving without her on earth. +1 month and 13 days. Yesterday, I watched a David Mamet movie from 1998, “The Spanish Prisoner.” I’m reasonably certain we saw it together in the theater, but I’m uncertain. Clearly, I think we saw everything Mamet wrote/directed. So anyway, I semi-enjoyed the movie but later I wondered if I’d picked this movie to deliberately make myself sad. (It was an ok caper movie, pretty ok cast, Steve Martin wasn’t bad.) Of course I was, so many things to talk about with her and I never will do again. Well, the feeling is sacred. Now I must find the truth of this feeling. Thanks for reading. (The picture is the Fabulous Offspring at the Landmark Center here in St. Paul. I didn’t label the pic for the room, but it’s quite the fireplace.)


I'm thankful for friends, the opportunity to ask them for help, and the chance to respond to their requests. That's what we're here for, the rest is gravy. I’d never like to promote FB any more than it does itself, but that’s my post from moments ago. The blurry photo shows the beautiful hands of S, from Feb 08. (Note to both readers and self: must write about the serendipity of rediscovering old photos.) I’ve said many times that my life is better with S in it, even distantly, and I’ve meant it every time. There are many friends I relish the chance to help, but she’s in the category of “Last Call.” That is, I’d like to see myself as her last phone call in any situation. She has a support network of her own, a circle of friends, a new beau. But when all hell breaks loose, or just the damned tire goes flat at the wrong time, the call she knows will be answered would be to me. It happened before, in small ways, and once in a very large way documented in earlier posts, but who knows what the future holds. I would end my days saddened if I do so without another chance to rise to that occasion. But that’s just one friend, albeit a special one. It is not merely for friends that I give thanks this week, it is for the chance to call on them and be called upon. To cheer, and hug and celebrate. To hold their hand while they lay dying, and to comfort the mourning. The reason we’re here—I’ve been through many cycles of this, even a religious phase—is that last. The last, greatest task we can perform for another. We’re here to help move furniture. We’re here to loan money, tools, food, and smiles. We’re here to whip our friends and family into aiding their friends and family. We’re here to do all this, not because it’s effortless, but because the effort costs us nothing. In the doing, we are enriched. In the receipt, we are not indebted. In the friendship, we are all aggrandized, made holy by the act of asking, and the act of responding. I am thankful for my friends, but mostly, I’m thankful for the chance to do something for them.


The woman in the picture was my best friend*, and her account of the end of her life is in her blog. She defined “family” like this: A family is any group of people that stay together because they love one and other. With my eternal thanks, Kathy, and your daughter is going to be fine.

*All photos of actual people have been replaced with stock shots. This person’s photo was found by searching for “random Kate.”


I was telling a friend who lives in the South of France, that about 8:30 this morning, the sun receded for the winter. I’ve been told that we’re headed for something around 30 and rain. (That’s 0° C to you, Anne!) So I think Clarity is in the garage for the winter, which is really too bad. But I will keep my eyes open for a sneaky little chance to sneak out and ride around. Even if it’s just slow-laps around the parking lot. C’s downstairs cooking sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes and dessert for tonight’s pre-turkey day turkey dinner. Seems a little redundant, but it’ll be fun out at The Swamp.


Sitting in another hospital, another relative is sick. In this case, my brother had various pieces of internal plumbing reconnected. (They were disco’d in the spring urgent surgery to clear a blockage and remove a tumor.) So this is, in a weird way, a good thing. Naturally, this surgery hurts more, and though it went well (only 1.5 hours!) the recovery looks pretty awful. This is not merely my opinion, at least one doctor and a nurse have both said that things look a teensy bit higher on the pain-scale than expected. But he’s gotta be doin’ good by any standards: temp’s good, pulse a tad high, (so’s the pain, no surprise) and the massive excruciating abdominal spasms are fewer. Ok, now onto me, since it IS my blog. I’m having a bit of “the freakies” (I told K’s brother P) at being in the hospital again. Intellectually, I have to remind myself that as a VISITOR, this is not a bad thing. It is, however, wearing. This hospital is a LOT nicer than the other one, even this slightly older area is gorgeous compared to the place K spent her last days in. Now dear reader, let me scale that for you. K’s hospital was functional, albeit old and perhaps a little less well cared for. All her needs were met, I think no risks were suffered, but it was just a little...plain. (Linoleum floors, a very narrow color-contrast pallette, not bad windows, terrible elevators, pretty limited food service. By contrast, this place has—and we’re talking the medium-old wing of this hospital—wooden, contrasting floors, a much more challenging palette, and carpeting under the “oculus” nursing station. This might be only temporary, I recall my room in this same hospital—not far from here—was a double, and a little more plain, but still. Even my room beat K’s for serenity by style. Hey, I’m and architecture fan, ok? Oh, and my mom’s room for hip-surgery, was f-in’ PHENOMENAL. Plus elevators that make the vertical commute (at least on weekends) rather painless, and food service 24x7 (if you’ll eat McD’s) and it’s not a bad place to visit. Still, watching him try to scream—a horse, whisper at best—is not helping me much. But telling you, even the anonymous one, about it is a bit of a relief. “Pain shared is lessened; happiness shared is increased” Spider Robinson. Thanks for listening, and as I said in an FB post when K reached the end of her care: Go hug someone today, and make a point of telling someone you love them, because we’re all just a tiny amount of ATP and calcium ions from being dirt. And don’t worry about D, he’s going to be fine. Painful recovery, but recovery nonetheless.


Unfortunately, I came home to a bomb-site and quite frankly the emotional drain’s been pretty great. And I’m finding that at these times, I’ve really lost my best friend.

I’m sorry dear reader, I meant more words and, you know, thoughts and I don’t have any.**

**I have transferred this to my laptop, and had plans for writing entries on the fly. So portable.


The last three weeks or so have been a nightmare, sorry dear reader. The photo is K beginning what would become her 2nd to the last hospitalization, with C snuggling beside her mom. (To protect identities, the photo is a stock shot.) K died on the Ides of October around 4am CDT. I’m truly sorry to mark the death of my best friend. We had the memorial service on Sunday, and the funeral on Monday. The internment await(ed) the urn’s delivery, which I assume has happened. Last weekend (24th) was the emptying of her apartment. There are so many ways we bump into the event: Last night SS-P and I were watching “The Proposal” and C sat with us for a bit. She left saying this was the last movie she’d ever watched with her mom. I was organizing papers, and read her death certificate. I’m very interested in how long our public personas coast on without us; how specific the steps are to apply those brakes. I wonder how this will change over times to come. I suppose it will always be “relatively easy” when there’s a corpse and an unchallenged chain of custody. Thanks for reading. More updates, more frequently.


Listening to “Last to Know” by Neil Finn (One Nil). So yesterday I heard an interview with Daniel Ellsberg, of Pentagon Papers fame. The question was about the reasons for a whistleblower, and he was explaining the grounds for his assertions being correct. Amongst this, he dropped a line about when the government would be adding more troops to the Afghan theater without telling us. Not “if.” I thought he was full of it.

This morning, NPR mentions that there’s an editorial written by the current commander in The Stan saying that without more meat, the “current mission will result in failure.” Dammit Ellsberg, don’t you know what they do to prophets who turn out to be right? And can anyone tell me what the differences are? Mission resulting in failure. Failing mission. Mission Failure. I realize we can all spin a difference in there, but really, this is not a discussion of the technical stylistic differences, but the reasons why you’d choose one phrase over the other. I think “habit” especially habitual military written expression.

Oh, and a member of the military writing editorials should be fired. And the publication’s stock devalued. The military has clear procedures for this, if his boss isn’t listening, he is permitted to go over his boss’s head. There should be no problem with him communicating to the Secretary of Defense. This is just stupid. (The war, the controversy, the need to kill more humans and burn up more resources.)